Should I just give up??

I'm not very good at this whole blogging thing am I? :/ There just never seems to be enough hours in the day for everything, and even when I do sit down here, I'm often so tired I end up just twiddling my thumbs doing not much at all other than check out facebook, and those times when I do sit down to do something constructive the kids usually do their best to distract me. I don't do much in the way of shoots these days other than a few for close family. I haven't even done a proper shoot with my own kids for a long time. Most times I get the camera out they do their best to avoid it, even my now almost 2yo has become acustomed from going from an all out gorgeous grin, to a ferral goan of dislike and moves as quick as she can :( I'd love to do more outside work, especially newborns, but I'm just so unorganised and don't advertise since I'm not really running a business, and with so many other home grown photographers popping up (with real businesses) the market has thinned out over the past year, even people who had made tentative bookings with me, have gone elsewhere instead, which has me questioning my skills and thus beginning to loose what little confidence I had gained this time last year, after all can you really call yourself a photographer when your still shooting with a 4+ year old entry level DSLR, when others are shooting with much higher quality cameras, and these days your adverage family camera is a bottom of the range DSLR, which are probably better quality than what I'm using simply due to age. Does it really matter what the quality of the camera is, or is it what you do with it that matters? I've been told that it doesn't, but I'm not so sure when I find some of my 100ISO photos coming out full of noise (and don't even think of going over 400) while some good quality cameras these days can take photos in the 1000's range without even a fraction of the noise my photos have at 400. Well duty calls, the day is moving forward but my house isn't getting cleaner while I'm sitting here, and I do believe I just spied my two littlest sharing a packet of biscuits for breakfast. I'll make it a priority on my to do list to get back on here sometime soon and update with some photos from the past 5 months or so.